Hi! This is Q, writing!
Well, it was SOMETHING yesterday. (April 11, 2012)
To start, I had an awesome chapel in the morning at school. It was very powerful, and the speaker wasn’t afraid to speak about salvation. She (the speaker) was telling the school about how if we become a believer we will live forever with Jesus, but if we don’t we will be a slave of Satan.
And it just struck me hard. I could feel the fear in my heart, and I was shaking… even after we were done with chapel. We sang a song, Walk on Water by Britt Nicole..? I am not sure about the singer. But, it tied with the message, about Peter and disciples on water with Jesus. I started to cry when I was singing the song. I was overwhelmed in my feelings. The speaker told the students that those who want to stay could stay and talk to the leaders who were there. Everyone exited out the gym very quietly. I couldn’t stop crying, and Mr. Te Slaa (history teacher who had talked with me about faith and many things in the past) saw me crying. He stopped me and asked if I was OK. I told him I was very scared and don’t know what to do. He asked me what my heart was telling me to do. I told him many times that I was very scared. Abby (my best friend) came in the gym and I told her that I think it is about time. I couldn’t have done it without her. There were two pastors from Bethel Church, and they prayed over me. And I told them that I made my decision to accept Jesus. I was very, very overwhelmed with what had happened and the decision that I made. A few of my friends were very happy for my decision. Of course, mom and dad are too! (host parents- David & Judy Douglas)
I got home with fear of how my parents in Korea would respond to my decision. I was crying constantly. I called my mom and dad, and of course they were surprised. Mom (an atheist) and dad have been fighting since that night, so they weren’t talking to each other… which made me more scared. I called mom and dad separately and explained what had happened. My dad believes in Buddhism. Not so strong towards that, just going to the temple once in a while. He told me that choosing a religion is a personal choice. He told me that he doesn’t want me to be restricted and obsessed with Christianity. My mom wanted me to just think about my decision more carefully. She didn’t know that I was struggling with it almost all year. When I talked to her the second time, I explained to her that both her and dad are the most important people in my life and I don’t want the religion to get between our relationship. My mom said she didn’t think that I would think about it that hard and deep. But, my mom said our relationship would never change.
So, I told my parents that I would explain more about what I have experienced and thought over the years when I go back home. So everything went great!
Thanks to the Lord!
I was very surprised that so many people have been praying for me, and noticed that I have been changing. I am still overwhelmed and I feel weird……hahaha. But, everyone was very rejoicing about my decision. The awesome part is that now I can sing songs from my heart. This has been the most challenging thing for me this year.
The last thing I want to say is that I am not 100% sure about my decision. There is a small part of me that is still afraid… I accepted Jesus, but not quite sure about Him being my Savior. I hope it goes up all the way to 100% someday.
Wow, I thought I would just write a few sentences… but this email turned out to be long. Thank you so much for praying for me!
P.S Kathy and Richie! This is my testimony that you could use for cryofworship.com!
Love you all!
Q-TI-PIE, THE ASIAN.
“This day I call the heavens and the earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live 20 and that you may love the LORD your God, listen to his voice, and hold fast to him. For the LORD is your life…” Deuteronomy 30:18-20